I try to model loving, accepting care of my mother for my kids, because I believe it is important and I want to help her, but I also try not to put it in terms of "I will expect this of you." I know there are too many variables to expect them to look after me. Without a doubt I am learning that (for me), giving and receiving care are the hardest parts of life. I hate being responsible for other people's bodies, and I hate the thought of them being responsible for mine.

But it is an inescapable part of being human and I need to accept it. Thank you for your help to your spouse; the world needs that love and attention. I am in awe of CNAs and caregivers. And thank you for reading.