Thank you for reading and for the kind words. I enjoyed one of your humor pieces today (and I really needed a laugh), so your writing is appreciated too, believe me!
Thanks also for the Rubin book recommendation; I will have to check it out.
It definitely bothers me that I feel the things I am doing, I am not doing well. All around me it seems like people have it much more figured out--or know how to manipulate things. I'm not a manipulator. I also don't want to be. I resent being made to feel like I should be. Those feelings are definitely at the root of my unhappiness.
You make excellent points about regret. I'm got to find a way to have less of it and I appreciate your examples of how you've done so in your life.